Why do I avoid editing my work? That’s the question I asked over a year ago. I still want the answer.
I can still think of lots of reasons not to sit down at the computer and finish a piece: knit, watch T.V., re-string some pearls, work in the yard, watch some more T.V., pick some blackberries. It doesn’t matter what I’m using to avoid editing and finishing a piece.
This is what I wrote in my first piece on May 22, 2008, but it still holds true for me:
Do I lack the skill–should I take an editing course? Am I afraid? OOPS, I THINK I JUST HIT THE PROBLEM! I’m afraid, no I’m TERRIFIED! If I edit my work and the story, any story gets completed, guess what? I then have to try to get it published. There in lies the problem. At least, I think that’s the problem. I lack the confidence to market my work–I’m afraid to be rejected, especially over and over again. What does that mean–I don’t think my writing is worthy of being published?
What if I am afraid, but not of being rejected–of being successful. Is it possible that I’m afraid of being noteworthy, outstanding, prosperous, arriving, famous. Maybe, out-shinning my husband and what the future would hold. Now, that would be sad.
I’ve wanted to be famous since I was in the eighth grade. There I said it and I didn’t die. I WANT TO BE WELL-KNOWN, PROMINENT, CELEBRATED. Anyway you say it, I have to edit my stories to get it!
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